Monday, April 8, 2013

Mind Vs Body (POEM)





Mind vs Body

My body knows that the touch of your skin is warm comforting and exciting
My mind knows that you are repulsed by me

My body knows that you know how to touch me, to make me feel sensual and alive
My mind knows you’d rather look at women who look so much better than me

My body knows that I feel fantastic when we make love, I radiate happiness, I glow
My mind knows I will soon feel lonely and ashamed again

My body knows that I can make you feel good, that I can make you happy, just for a moment
My mind knows that you are not even thinking of me when we are together

My body knows no sadness, only sensation, only pleasure
My mind knows only sadness, only pain.

My body doesn’t want to know what my mind knows
My mind just wants to be free.

STANDING BENEATH THE WEDDING TREE (POEM)

We have a tree in our yard.  We as a family call it The Wedding Tree.  Three seasons out of the year it is unremarkable.  But in the spring it bears the most beautiful white blooms.  And then the blooms turn pink and fall to the ground.  It's a magical experience to stand beneath this tree and watch the blooms fall.


Standing beneath the Wedding Tree
 
Gossamer strands of pink and white fall quietly to the earth
Peace envelopes my consciousness I’m filled with a feeling of mirth.
 
I stare in wonder and awe as each strand kisses the ground,
I watch with the eyes of a child as the strands float all around.
 
I am transported to somewhere I had forgotten long ago,
I am taken to a place that I wish once again to know.
 
I hold my breath as time stops everything is quiet and at peace,
I am filled with elation,  it seems that the moment will never cease.
 
I float on a feeling of rapture just like the gossamer strands falling free,
For a moment I let it all go, I allow myself to be truly me.
 
I am light as a feather and now I have no chains that bind
To unhappiness and reality I find I have become blind.
 
And then I feel a tug, a slight pull, a sweet little call
I look into the eyes of my children as they watch the strands fall.
 
And I’m moved by the happy picture that shines on their awe filled faces
And I know that they too have been transported therel to one of my favorite places.

 
And I’m satisfied with just being, satisfied with this precious moment in time,
I know that at this moment, the world is right. It is filled with music and rhyme.
 
And the very best part of this moment is the fact that I can share,
I can share with my children, this moment both treasured and rare.
 
And when I am not with them, they can recall this moment together,
This moment will be remembered, and cherished between us forever.

End Note:  Like My Marriage, The Wedding Tree is no More.  It was cut down.  But I shall cherish the memory forever.  I found a similiar tree in SL with the blooms floating down.  It made me happy to once again to stand beneath the Wedding Tree...  *smiles*

Friday, December 7, 2012

(DAYS OF OUR SECOND LIVES) Episode Two: Gratitude!

OPENING MONOLOGUE:

SL IS Drama.  Some drama is just honest unfortunate blending of unsuited people.  Some is just malicious game playing and manipulation.  No matter the source or the reason drama drains us, distracts us and often holds us back from the future we dream of.
Unfortunately we can't totally avoid drama.  All we can do is seperate ourselves from the black holes.  You know, those people who live to suck the life out of you.
When I face a difficult situation I find if I can laugh, it all seems better.  Even if I am laughing at myself.  So here is my wink and nod at the drama of second life.  Often the drama in SL reminds me of a soap opera.  So here's mine:  DAYS OF OUR SECOND LIVES!!!!!
All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real avatars, living or dead, is probably spot on... cough cough I mean purely coincidental!  *winks*

Our last show left Lynn searching for shorts and Richard dancing to the tune of his lady love... 

Lynn continues to search for shorts.  She grows more and more frantic.  She starts mumbling to herself.  Suddenly Richard Kitty appears followed by his lady love, Veronica.

"Lynn Richard tells me you need help finding shorts.  I keep telling you over and over that if you'd just allow me to choose your outfits then you and MrRightThisSecond would be having pixel babies by now.  You never listen.  I don't know why I do this.  I give and give and give but does anyone think of me?  No I am always the one people use and never appreciate!"

Lynn hangs her head. "You are right Veronica.  I should listen to you more.  I am sorry."

"Of course I am right!  I'm Veronica!  I know what's best for everyone in every given situation.  Richard feels the same way I do. We've talked about it at length."

Lynn looks and Richard is shaking his head no behind Veronica's back.  Veronica sensing dissention looks at Richard who stops shaking his head and smiles and Veronica.

"Of course Veronica.  I am sorry for not seeing things they way you do.  Thank you Veronica for helping me even though I don't show you proper gratitude."

"Now Lynn.  You don't need shorts.  You need an entirely new outfit.  Why you've worn that shirt for FIVE MINUTES!  You need a new one.  MrRightThisSecond will never look at you twice if you don't keep changing everything about you constantly.  He'll get bored.  Let's go shopping."

Before they leave MrRightThisSecond appears.

Lynn gasps, "MrRightThisSecond...hi...*giggles like a 12 year old* It's great to see you.  Thank you for coming.  I am sorry you have to see me like this.  I can look better.  I can do anything you want.  I... I... I..."

MrRightThisSecond says,"It's okay Lynn.  You don't have to worry.  You have exactly what I am looking for: a great deal of desperation and low self esteem.  You fawn over me, wait on me, do everything I want you to and you never complain.  I have to say I am rather enjoying it and as long as I enjoy it, then I'll keep seeing you. Well until I get bored or you do something I don't like or really for any reason at all.  But do try to keep me happy it's very amusing.

"Oh MrRightThisSecond you are so smart and you say the sweetest things.  Thank you.  I'm so glad to know you.  Wow!!"

"I know Lynn... I know."

Will Lynn and MrRightThisSecond be a match made in SL heaven?  Will Richard ever disagree with Veronica?  Will Veronica ever get the appreciation she deserves?  Find out in the next exciting episode offfffff... DAYS OF OUR SECOND LIVES!  

Zathos (POEM)

Zathos

Always hovering just above her head, she sees his winged flight.
With arms extended she reaches for him but he is gone from her sight.

Again he returns to taunt and torture her mind,
She scans the skies always hoping to find,

A glimpse, a glimmer, just something to treasure.
Her body cries out for release, cries out for the pleasure,

She knows only he can bring to her, he drives her insane.
She is thirsting for water, thirsting for rain.

She waits for him to join her down here,
He teases her and taunts her circling near.

He dives down so low she can feel his breath,
Then he flies away it feels just like death.

She tries to free herself from the chains that bind her down,
In his intoxicating essence she feels she might drown.

To fly through the skies is her deepest desire,
But she has no wings and she has no fire.

She is bound to the ground and can only watch the skies,
She cannot hide the desire and excitement in her eyes.

She sees his shadow gliding near,
She is filled with expectancy and fear.

This time he lands and lifts her up into the air,
She relaxes in his embrace he takes her into his lair.

The mingling of bodies, the cries thrown into the wind,
The passion builds and devours until the pleasurable end.

Slowly he glides down and returns her to her place,
He gently brushes the hair from her face.

One gentle kiss and he leaves her wanting more,
His touch has tamed her and shaken her to the core.

He waits in anticipation to capture her, to return her to his lair,
She watches the skies waiting for him to take her back into the air.

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Time To Fly (POEM)

I don't know if it was watching The Raven (a movie about Poe solving murders done in the style of his stories), my melancholy mood brought on by holidays, or actually seeing a fly on the ceiling of my bathroom but this poem is purely a flight of fancy.  A morbid flight but nothing but a flight of fancy all the same.  I am not in the least bit suicidal.  That being said, I bring you... Time to fly!

 
Time to Fly
 
A fly crawled across the ceiling as my life ran out,
I watched it moving across the white ceiling with it's
swirled patterns.
It seems so strange to be mesmerized by a fly,
my last thoughts as I died.
I'd spent too many hours on the unhappy events of my life,
so many hours on guilt and despair,
and my last thought not of loved ones,
of those I left behind,
but of a fly crawling across the ceiling.
I chose death in this bathroom all blue and white,
the colors are peaceful I am told.
Peace washed over me as the blood ran out,
taking my life with it as it flowed down the drain.
I could not love myself,
and refused to believe anyone else could.
I longed to be adored,
cherished and protected.
It was not meant for me I suppose.
I hope they don't mourn too much,
those who believed they loved me.
I hope their thoughts of me are as inconsequential as a fly
crawling across a white swirled ceiling.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

A Jen Trouble Shooting Guide (POEM?)

A Jen Trouble Shooting Guide




If I get quiet and distant I probably feel insignificant
and I need to know I matter to you.

If I get bitchy and try to push you away, you're too close
and I'm scared.
 
If I get insecure and worry too much, if you can, be patient with me.
If I get over the top crazy and bouncing off the walls joking, most likely I am really sad and trying to shake off the blues.
If I ask you for a lot of feedback, your opinion matters to me. 
If I cry, hold me.
If I am ridiculous, don't laugh at me.
If I do something right, tell me.
If I give you my word, believe it.
If I am funny, laugh.
If I doubt myself, believe in me.
If I make myself vulnerable to you, don't reject me.
If I give you my heart, even if you can't accept it, don't break it when you give it back to me.
If I bring myself to care about you, it takes a lot to make me stop.
If you make a promise to me, keep it.
If I love you, I want the best for you, even if I am not it.
If I have a heavy heart, remind me of my blessings.
If I have a tale to tell, If I have a song to sing, listen.
If I smile at you, smile back.
If I try to get your attention, don't ignore me.
If I draw closer to you, don't push me away.
If I open myself up to you, don't shut me out.
If I trust you enough to show you who I am, don't try to change me.

Basically... love with me,laugh with me, live with me, enjoy me as I am or set me free so I can find someone who can!

(DAYS OF OUR SECOND LIVES) Episode One : Shorts!

SL IS Drama.  Some drama is just honest unfortunate blending of unsuited people.  Some is just malicious game playing and manipulation.  No matter the source or the reason drama drains us, distracts us and often holds us back from the future we dream of.

Unfortunately we can't totally avoid drama.  All we can do is seperate ourselves from the black holes.  You know, those people who live to suck the life out of you.

When I face a difficult situation I find if I can laugh, it all seems better.  Even if I am laughing at myself.  So here is my wink and nod at the drama of second life.  Often the drama in SL reminds me of a soap opera.  So here's mine:  DAYS OF OUR SECOND LIVES!!!!!

All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real avatars, living or dead, is probably spot on... cough cough I mean purely coincidental!  *winks*

We open with one solitary figure.  She stands alone in a sandbox trying on outfit after outfit.  She seems content.  No one knows the turmoil that engulfs her. What in the world is she gonna do?  It seems she just can't find the right shorts to go with her new top!

GASP...DRAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!

In pops a very flamboyant Kitty...  "Lynnnnnnnn!" 

"Richard!"

"What's new?" 

"Oh Richard I can't find shorts to go with this top!  How am I going to make MrRightThisSecond fall in love with me nowwwwwwwwwwwwww?  He'll never love me and be faithful only to me and have pixel babies if I can't find the right shorts!!!!"

"This is a dilemna.  Never underestimate the importance of a good pair of shorts!  Oh dear I have to go.  Veronica needs me five seconds ago.  If I don't jump to her beck and call she might cancel our wedding... AGAIN!"

Will Lynn find the perfect shorts?  Will MrRightThisSecond succumb to her charms?  Will RichardKitty EVER get married?  Find out in the next exciting episode offfffff... DAYS OF OUR SECOND LIVES!