Puppet Master
You never took up for me although many others you defended,
You were a knight in shining armour to many you befriended.
You played me like a puppet and I let you pull the strings,
And all I ever wanted was to take fight and spread my wings.
You were always so ready to believe the worst in me,
You never really knew me, just who you wanted me to be.
People's worth you judged by what they could do for you,
Wheeling and dealing people's lives is what you loved to do.
You manipulated with barbs and hateful jibes, you triedto make me change,
You thought me too stupid to notice, you thought that my whole life I would rearrange.
And when I resisted, when I no longer fit your mold,
You began to hate me, your feelings soon grew cold.
And then you left me broken, wounded and bleeding on the floor,
You walked away without looking back and loudly shut thedoor.
Then you decided that we should still be friends,
Well I am sorry but this is where it ends.
I can no longer be pulled into your mire,
I refuse to be consumed by your fire.
Go find a new puppet, a new toy with which to play,
I'm tired of being a plaything I'm ending this today.
I'm walking out without looking back, I will not even cry,
I walk out with a brand new freedom and a twinkle in myeye.
So play your game with others, go get your needs met,
And I will leave this prison with no feeling of regret.
You might find it hard to replace a person who cared so much,
Or you might easily find someone willing do your bidding and be your crutch.
Either way you will never bring me any more heartbreak and disaster,
And thank God I have finally broken free from you the Puppet Master.
I wrote this years ago. I never made it public because it was too fresh and I didn't want to share what was going thru my head. I think enough time has passed to share this. Those who cared about what I am talking about in this poem have long moved on. And I think in putting it out there, I am putting it behind me and moving on.
Snake in the Grass
You think I don't know who you really are inside,
I know who you are and what you have done.
You think that you have pulled one over on me,
But I knew from the start how this would end.
You think you have people fooled and that you can do as you like,
But sooner or later it will come to light and people will know you for your deeds.
You lie to garner sympathy and to ruin people's lives,
to manipulate them into doing what you want.
And sure some people are stupid enough to believe you,
I never did, I just waited for you to mess up.
Instead you did your best to destroy me,
And I almost let you,
But you didn't beat me,
You only taught me a valuable lesson.
And you don't even know I know,
You are just trying to get what use you can out of me,
But I am not deceived.
Though you have taken something very important from me,
You actually did me a favor it seems.
And I'm going to be fine.
And I'm going to be better for the experience.
But you will be the same person you are,
You can only win others to you with untruth and deception,
Nobody cares for the real you because you never show them you.
And it's sad because you could be a really great person,
You have a lot of amazing gifts,
But you think you have to lie and use your body to gain what you want,
that nobody will ever love you for you.
Sad really.
I hope someday you can have the courage to be who you were meant to be,
that you stop all the lies and deceit and learn what a real friend is,
and to know the joy of truly caring about someone,
I really do.
And I am not perfect.
I know I have many many faults,
But I would never do to another what you have done to me.
I never deserved it.
And even though it hurts,
I still want to thank you,
Thank you for showing me what a real friend is not.
