Never was
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Grieving for someone who doesn't exist
mourning a love that never was
crying longing for someone who never had breath
who only existed in my mind
my superhero turned out to be
ordinary flesh and blood
when they fell from the pedastal they were broken
mangled beyond repair
And the person that rose from the wreckage
bore no resemblance to the person I loved
a grinning macabre effigy of the man I trusted
And i have to pretend it's all the same
nothing has changed
but everything has
and i have to mourn in silence
for the person who meant everything
And never existed
Nothing
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not even a ripple was made
as I left your life
no tears were shed
not even a breath of air
covered your face
no change at all
No difference from one
moment to the next
but to me
the world grew dark
a gaping hole sucked me down
back into the pit
no light to guide me home
Just silence and the echoes
of laughter from your world
Which went on without me
Drain me
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Enjoy it all every last ounce
Leave nothing, have your fill
Hollow desires forsaken and vacant
The time has come for the next step
I am tired and weary
Exhausted beyond comprehension
So when you depart just leave me empty
Do not be afraid to take all you need and more
And when the last drop is finally gone
I shall at last find peace
